yamaonna

Yesterday we went on a shopping ‘marathon’….  I havnt been that tired from shopping since living in Tokyo…  We did one of those shopping tours as a fund raiser for the Miss Personality quest, and managed to raise about $190 from just comissions.  I think that our total will be somewhere close to the $500 mark, which is great becuase thats the minimum you have to raise to be in the quest.  Of couse I do want to raise a lot more than just that 🙂

So, shopping tour.  Well, it was….  intresting.  I’m finding that there really arnt that many bargins to be had in warehouse/discount shopping.  maybe Im just a snob.  But i did manage to find some items for myself – a skirt, a couple of books, a handbag.  Overall, the bus spent over $3000, and I only spent about $100.

We also raffled off some of the presents that were given to the group, but they were nothing special, and sold drinks.  It was quite a fun day overall, but I dont think I’ll do that sort of thing again.  Our next fundraiser will be the christmas cakes, followed by a trivia night.  that shoud be intresting….

Life in general, well, Im having some revelations lately.  In the last month i have done some bad bad things, and I have been feeling very badly for it.   very indeed.  But thru these trials I am becoming closer and closer to God.  Its a good thing, but in a bad way.  Becoming closer to God is good, me doing very bad things is bad.  So Im praying that Im able to prevent myself from doing these bad things, and that I can continue to grow closer to God without them – which means effort.  This is another feeling I dont think I’ve felt to the same extreme since Tokyo.  This is very hard to talk about, and have what Im feeling understood.

suffice to say, this is a difficult time in my life, and will continue to be difficult for a while.  so, I suppose Im trying to say is that support would be nice (but not that I want ppl to ring me up now and say “Whats wrong, can I help?”  more like, I would just like ppl to understand that there are changes happening and to have some patience.)

i think thats enough random ramblings for today.